Omg, I’ve been gone for too long. It’s been a mad past few days (I need to stop using this as the reason) wrapping up Ramadhan and preparing for Eid!
Actually, I didn’t do any preparing at all because #Covid19, heh.
We had 3 days straight of celebrations this year because it was my nephew’s 1st birthday on the 23rd, then Eid on 24th and then I turned 29 yesterday on the 25th! What a happy long weekend it was filled with much love. I thought it would be a lame birthday being stuck at home and all but alas, I had delivery after delivery of cakes and flowers and gifts and OH MY HEART WAS SWOLLEN WITH LOVE
Eid was pretty cool too being able to see everyone on Zoom from the comfort of our home. Makes me feel like we’re far away in another country or something while everyone is back in Singapore hahaha. This year I didn’t clean the house, didn’t bake, didn’t cook, didn’t buy new clothes… it really brought us all back to the basics of what the celebrations should revolve around: family and loved ones.
It was a very different Eid and birthday for me this year since it’s the first one with N around. Of course, she stole only all the attention everywhere but that’s okay. Being stuck at home has kinda forced me to appreciate the little things and to realise that I don’t need as much as I think I do. Although I’ve been home for almost the whole of 3 months, in hindsight, I’m pretty okay with it. I mean, at home I really get to pay 100% to N, listen to her every babble and join her every laughter. She’s growing up so fast and I’m so glad I’m around for every minute of it. There’s no pressure of getting dressed on time, packing bags, prepping on-the-go meals. No worries about her naps and diaper changes or nursing rooms. It’s been so.. easy and chill.
When I think about it, if #Covid19 wasn’t here and Eid wasn’t affected, I would have been super stressed and absent. Knowing me – and how I need to have order for everything – I’d probably not enjoy most of the day and in the end, I’d feel miserable for missing out. So I’m kinda thankful that we got to skip this year and when the next Eid rolls around inshallah, N would be older and *hopefully* easier to manage haha!
On another note, I miss my grandparents so so much. I haven’t seen them in so long and each time I think about them sitting at home looking at our pictures my heart aches a little. Habib has learnt to video call which is officially the cutest thing in the world so we’ve at least gotten to meet virtually but it’s not the same. I really hope we come out of this outbreak soon and it gets safe again to mingle.
(Also, so that we can get our air-con units replace because the heat on some days……)
Gah I really missed blogging! I need to be more diligent in making time for this, and I will! I promise!